personality

Step 77: The Process of Personality

I’m a little off today. Maybe it’s because I’m 34 now. Maybe it’s all of the awakening that’s happening in my yoga practice that’s making me a little loopy. Could be day light savings time is causing me some adjustments. Or the new job. Or the fact that I have a really bad sore throat for no reason at all because the rest of me feels just fine. Despite the day off yesterday, I’m exhausted today. Exhausted as in I’m finishing this post and falling into my bed, literally.

I’ve also been having this weird little sense of wanting to curl up and cocoon, which is completely out of sync with what’s happening in the rest of the world. Spring is springing, and I feel like I should be springing, except for this tiny little fact that I’m craving the sensation of being low, near to the Earth, and grounded. How is it that yesterday I felt so in tune with the world and today I don’t feel in tune with anyone or anything? What’s going on?

On the subway this morning, I began reading the Bhagavad Gita, a sacred Hindu scripture that nearly all yogis refer to in their practice in some way. In the introduction, the translator wrote the line “personality is a process.” He goes on to talk about conflicting emotions and the general conundrums of living an existence on this Earth, even though we are heavenly beings. He talks about the push-pull of living, and it appears, at least at the beginning of this reading, that the only way around this is through. We must persevere.

So that’s what I’ll do. I’ll just keep going, even though I’m confused and unsure. Many times I think that perseverance may be the one thing I know how to do well. If I trust the process, then I trust that the answers will come.

4 thoughts on “Step 77: The Process of Personality”

  1. Well, Christa, we all have our off days. Nobody’s perfect.

    So, cheer up. You will not only survive, but thrive for sure.

    Personally, meditation is a daily habit. So, if I miss my session, I have an off day. It is as simple as that.

    For you, the reason may be different (and for others too).

    Oh well, that’s life. Pick yourself up and get back in the game: that’s the lesson I learn every time things don’t go my way. Some words of inspiration from a poet?

    “The lives of great men and women
    All remind us
    We too can make our lives sublime
    And thus departing
    Leave behind us
    Footprints on the sands of time.

    The lives of great men and women
    Reached and kept
    Were not attained by sudden flight
    But they, while their companions slept
    Were toiling upwards into the night.”

    You are going to do just fine. Just give yourself a little time and you will recover. Be patient and kind to your self.

    Move gently and peacefully with the ebb and flow.
    Tomorrow is another day, after all, better than today.

    Cheers!

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  2. “Just as cotton is swayed in the direction of the winds coming and going, so should one surrender oneself to one’s enthusiasm, and in this way one’s supernormal powers will thrive. ” ~~~Shantideva ch. 7 v 75

    You are a blessing and your light will only continue to grow stronger enabling us all to see.

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